Trying to be...
2003-11-10 - 8:13 a.m.
Today is my 2 year wedding anniversary. My how the time has flown. If anyone is interested in seeing pics they are here Though its funny, because when I look at those pictures, they seem like they are so outdated....(and when I fear that I've gained back all of the weight I lost, I realize in looking at those photos, that in fact, no I haven't).
Tomorrow I have my first ultrasound. I should be able to see the little fetal sac, and hopefully see the heartbeat. That's good because, though I can't explain it, since yesterday I have been feeling like I'm not pregnant anymore. I don't know how to explain it....and I'm sure its probably irrational, but I just feel a little different. And I know its too early to really be "feeling" much of anything, but its been there. I mean, it waivers, and at times I say "oh that's ridiculous, of course you still are! You haven't had any indications that you have lost this baby, so get over it" and other times that I think "hmmm, I don't feel it...I'm not nauseaus....my boobs feel less sore....that coffee doesn't smell/taste too bad to me today". Is this what they talk about when they say "mood swings and irrational thoughts"?
In any case, D is on his way for his prenatal blood tests. This is something I feel really really confident is just a "rule-out" procedure, but better safe than sorry.
