Trying to be...
2003-10-28 - 1:17 p.m.
As of today, I am officially switched from "trying to be" to "am". Though I am still afraid to say it out loud, and still know that the next few weeks will be full of anticipation, it is official.
We are pregnant.
6 positive home pregnancy tests confirmed, but it still didn't seem real until my visit at the doctor today. Yet another positive urine test, loads of blood work drawn, and a confirmation that my uterus has already begun changing shape and size followed by a hearty congratulatory hug from my doctor make it NOW seem real.
I'm afraid to tell people, and yet, am bursting wanting to tell people. So far only my parents, sisters and a few very treasured girlfriends know. And now you, whoever may be reading this.
So here goes the new journey, one I've been desperate to begin for many disappointing months. I'm excited, I'm scared, I'm beyond words and description.
Last June we buried my grandfather.
This June we will be welcoming a baby.
