Trying to be...
2003-10-20 - 6:48 p.m.
So my doctor finally called me back. After nearly a week of leaving messages.
I have been diagnosed with PCOS.
I'm not sure if I am happy to have a diagnosis, or sad that something is really "wrong" with me...I guess its really a combination of both. Until I had a diagnosis, I could hope that it was just taking us a bit longer to conceive, and that was that. But nope, turns out it wasn't just "not our time" or "not meant to be" or "keep trying! It will happen for you" or any of those other trite things people say. But in fact, my body not quite producing what it needs to produce in the right amounts.
I guess I'm not surprised. I've always thought I had much more hair than other girls. Though instead of getting my period to rarely, I get it too often. When I was a teenager I was getting it every 3 weeks!
I start taking Clomid in a few days. I'm due for my period today but haven't gotten it yet. Wouldn't it be funny if I *didn't* get my period this month? As in, I actually was pregnant? Sure, laugh riot.
I'm afraid to take Clomid. I mean, I'm grateful for anything that could lead to me having a healthy pregnancy, but I'm afraid of the side-effects:
irritability
headaches
hot flashes
weight gain
nauseau
vomiting/diarhea
multiple fertilized eggs
fingers crossed....
